SAGITTARIUS

UNTIL 2008

One thing you never want to be thought of is a tortured soul. The one you don't have of course. The one no Sagittarian has. Because your soul is, if not tortured, certainly wracked with confusion over a few major issues like whether you're going to make or not past next weekend.

With Pluto in your sign (that's big. Very big) and . Pluto, as many Sadges already know, is moving slowly through Sagittarius, killing off slowly but surely your old life, until there is nothing left, not even traces of what was there in years past.. It's a death. Not always physical death, although it is sometimes depending on your age and how self-destructive you are, but it's usually a more symbolic death, a transformation and slow and steady recreation of your entire existence.

Old relationships die, people move away, the house you live in, the people you relate to, the things you are doing for work, all the causes and beliefs you held so dearly for so long--everything goes. It is horribly scary, I've got to admit. It is horribly scary especially when you are clinging to that old life, holding on the way a starving street urchin would refuse to give up a crust of moldy bread. It's no use to you any more. It doesn't work. It doesn't fit. You can't wear those old clothes you wore in your old life. They don't work. You can't get into them.

But it's horribly scary when you don't know what's ahead, what to look forward to. If all you see up ahead is the darkness and the void and you can't figure out what the next step is or where to go or how to proceed and there's no one really to ask no one to guide or protect you, of course it's horribly scary.

The fact is there's no one to please now. Nobody you have to lie to, pretend to, protect or take care of. Even if you have kids or a mate or a big career, the fact is it is your own survival your own life you have to care for now. Nothing can mean more to you than living. Nothing can mean more to you than your own life your own truth. And if you have secrets that torture your soul, they will come out. They must come out.

Because you have to be real now. No more escape. NO more hiding. NO more dulling your pain. Your hope is in being honest and truthful and letting the world know that your life is just as important to you as protecting everybody from it. And that means you have to be assertive and selfish. IN fact, you have to adopt a whole new philosophy. And if you turn out to be the last living person on Earth, I you have to tell yourself that as long as there is fresh bread to make yourself a sandwich you ‘ll be all right.

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